I think I myself is the least person I know in this whole world!!!

Lately I've been thinking..I believe I have lost something in me-something has changed within me..and I don't know what it is..!

I always compare myself to others..that is my nature-and I believe I've been imitating to someone else whom I'm not sure about..

I don't know anything about myself anymore!

I watched Toraisera TV (old episodes) this noon and I wanted to be like him..Wada-san!
full of enthusiasm..optimistic..easy to get laugh..ganbatte..I adore him soo much <3

so I work out things here...
I never write diary anymore, not blog-so I never be honest to myself. I think..I always let the trouble on me, fix it, and let it go...without making a note. I need to make some evaluations to myself..so write em!

Then..I start again to make note about things in my mind. Things that cherish, make me happy, encourage me, lift me up, inspire me, in this small book gift from ELLE magazine last month edition..hahaaaa. Yes it's kinda mini scrap book-cuute

I want to find the truth about myself from this book..so I will try to be honest through writing it here.

Tomorrow I'm going to have final test on philosophy class. However, finding myself is more important
Help! I get lost!

I've been listening to Jamie Cullum new album "The Pursuit" If I Ruled the World is my favorite tune. It's a cover one. Keep listening on this track over and over...
and I'm soooo much into Kings of Leon these days. Got the copies of their previous albums,the ones before 'Only by the Night'..
Slow Night So Long, Knocked Up, My Party, McFearless...whoaahh!! looove em...
I heard that Kings of Leon have been pretty popular this year-well eventually, sex sells!

I've just watched Tom Cruise' Valkrie..
One of good fuhrer theme movies..Still my favorite is 'Life is Beautiful'
I remember when I woke up at 3 am and I watched a movie about fuhrer biography...I believe it was 3 hours more movie about fuhrer..do you think it is better to mention the nationalist socialist group or the leader's name? very very sensitive case...

I attended one class today as the lecture invited me to come. It was good opportunity for me to understand the other side of Japan because of her lecture could broaden my view about the nation, and I found out lot of things that made me think...am I really really want to go back there???

Some of my schoolmates want to go to Japan. Yes, I saw the pictures of senpai with their Japanese friends..seem fun! Japan is one lovely country...but I have been there! and I know so much thing about Japan since I'm studying at Nihon Chiiki Kenkyuu..

I feel like I want to know a lot more about...ANYTHING ELSE!!I have experienced Japan and everything (some) they have told me about Japan. From understanding an object, for this case Japan, we might understand about other area too...we might come with the same approach or method-and we might describe, compare and share to the...WORLD! and inspire people..and Change the World toward the better ONE!

I can make a song with this...

AaaaaHHH Wada-san ni aitai, sorekara nihon ni kaeritai...

Yesterday I took a friend of mine to Soekarno-Hatta airport and bought myself a dozen of Krispy Kreme..
and this morning when I looked back inside the box..jang jang jang...



Anywae..

Haa...I have finished my paper, it's about net-shinjyuu. I hope my friends would never think me as a fan of theme like this-gothic, visual kei, dark-theme..no!! I love pink!!

My paper is examining the social change from net-shinjyuu lens. It's one kind of suicide pacts using internet as a tool of communication...well I have to say, I felt heavy when I worked on this paper. The victims of net-shinjyuu, they lost of something called connections-they were lonely. Hey, sometimes I feel lonely too...but I work out!

However, I just felt like I knew what was on their mind-these victims..I knew their feeling..and I felt like yes suicide was an easy way to let everything go...
so yesterday I went crazy-updating my facebook stats with babbling words as I went to deep with my work

I'm so happy with Triceratops' concept of Tora TV. I have something I can wait in a week! a 12-13 minutes talk from Triceratops!!!! hahahaaaaa...


Anywae, anywae..since I'm a student of Japanese study so I learn a lot about society in Japan. So..Japanese people have a communal characteristic..desho? Whenever I was in my class, studying about Japanese people..I remembered..Triceratops people!!

I believe Hayashi Koji is the most Japanese among others..(wahaaa) since he doesn't talk too much, move to much, and he's a baseball fan!! When I was in Japan, baseball is a HUGE topic..! I was surrounded by Yokohama BayStars fans in Kanagawa!

Yoshifumi Yoshida is well..he's a normal one! he has son...he had Christmas album..he's a pro drummer so he plays not only with Triceratops but also in other bands (usually Japanese trully belong to their community soo...they won't participate in other community!). Hayashi-san plays in other band too..though
anyway he's like many other people in this world

Sho Wada is...the most unlike many Japanese..because he speaks British English (according to one comment on Youtube!), he does blues, he is very talkative and energic guy..!!! (:-D) it's been said that Japanese people don't like people who talk and move too much...oo-ooW

Hahaaaa...well this writing is just my free writing and I dun intend to put Japanese people and Triceratops in trouble (X-P)...well I dun have strong evidences (data, script, literature) with these findings!!

Actually, based on Japanese Corporation Study..I found lots of characteristic from Triceratops..
Leadership-Groupism-Nemawashi-Nominication :-D
Japanese Study omoshiroiyooo

 HAHAaaa.....I'm soooo exhausted! time to relax a bit..

Y'know I've been into Kings of Leon these days. At first I was a bit offended by their hit "Sex on Fire" title but later I found out that the band technically was indeed different than any other today's band. I like the guitar riff..! (nice nice job Matthew Followill!!!) 
I still can't recall all the band member's name...who?who? Caleb-Matt-Jared-Nathan.rite??! KOL was oso in Summer Sonic 2003 ee~and all the members are still under 30? ah except for the drummer who turned 30 this year--oh who cares

I'll buy the DVD concert if sumday I find it on store. 



 the stage reminds me with Yokohama Arena...!

Today I felt exhausted so I slept all day and then went back to my campus for attending night lecture. I'm focusing on my study and my work so I dun pay attention to what's on news. I dunno anything about today's hot gossip even things that happen on TV just simply I dun own it~~~!!! I dun have TV in my room...fufu. Whenever I need something to entertain me, I simply listen to music or watch Triceratops ka..

I think I need to speed up my pace-twice no..three times better! Hhhh...ganbatte kudasai! I have a huge responsibility of the things I've been given and for the things I will be given in the future...they always come to me..

What a boring writing...
mata ato de ne!

I AM BACK!!!!!!!

After a year of emptiness....OOOOOOHHHH
I'd been writing on another livejournal site-I have already deleted it!!!! I realized now how precious this livejournal page because:

1. This page contains my journey to Japan and Mecca
2. When I googled 'Sho Wada' this page was on top 10 and some of Sho Wada images were from this page...soo...
3. I think Sho Wada probably have noticed this site if he oso google the same thing~!
4. I'm still Sho Wada fan and this page contains memory of my first "interaction" with the vocal-guitar (haha--maniac da ne atashii...)
5. What the HECK with all these Wada-san things...get a life!!!!!!

actually the reason why I left this page A YEAR ago because that DARRYL-the name of my motokare..and I must pay if I want to change into another name..

Ja...yoroshiku onegaishimasu..!!
Who am I? after a year...

watashi wa Indonesia Daigaku no Nihon Chiiki Kenkyu Daigakusei...!!
I'm a Nihon Researcher now! so I believe -hopefully- I can write good things here about Nippon!

I wanna write some more things so I can catch up A YEAR
I have so much things to tell you

Oh yes..I am still enjoying the life of being fan!

I believe I'm going to an end of my journal
I want to create a new one-because I've found the new me
I'm handling a new responsibility-I'm going to give a birth..no no-not the real human baby..well-I'm establishing my own company. It's called My English Club. My new baby.

Yesterday, ojiisan-tachi built this big neon box with big 'MY ENGLISH CLUB' words written there...hoh...
I think this journal has no longer had any relevant with today's me..and the future of me

Oh My God-this journal is amazing. I've been to Japan..Saudi Arabia..finishing my school..


Sayonara-Darryl-san..

These past 2-3 years have been amazing-

I'm moving to another..............................^O^ still haven't found that

Bye Bye

real tears ;___________________;

Take a look at those Arashi stuff-CD-magazine in my cabinet--it's not exactly a cabinet-.
Those things have never been touched anymore.
I need to make a confession about my experience. Last year I watched their live in Japan, right? I have to say, it was like I got drunk in one horrible party. I felt so lonely in that concert, admiring cute boys, screaming toward them as like I was so thirsty with men. I still remember that I told to myself there..I dun want to be part of these girls! However, watching Arashi concert live is one good farewell party to the hedonic teenage life.

Actually this kind little part of my life is not my priority anymore. Toraisera-Arashi-Remioromen-Japanese Pop Star-Japan- Well it was. Livejournal is my only place to write anything fun to reduce my pressure of the real life. Obama won the election e~

I really want to go to INDIA..but I insist before I go to other part of the world-I want to go Hajj. One pray when I was on my pilgrimage, I hope I return with my husband. I haven't found him yet ^^; People around me are getting married yo. Oh well..my friend said 'don't get married just because your friends are'
I know and close to some best male friends. Only this time I become so selective...Allah is the only one Who guides me. I believe Allah guides me to the best.

hmmm.....I hope my future husband has already born...

Ow-another crazy night writings..and I like today's.

one day I played animal mime with a friend of mine..

me "eeeerrrr--grrraoowwwww!!"

d-chan : ah a cat! an angry one!

me : "ouuukkk uu--uu--ooooouuuuukkkkk....!!!!"

d-chan : a rooster! a rooster!

me : u-huh...u-huh...

d-chan : an owl..

d-chan : lemme lemme

"nanana...sou-wa!!..blablablabla....neeeeeee--waaowaaowaaa"

me : Triceratops!!! aaahahaha!!

Pilates is my new hobby. I've been doing it for one week and I've already gained the result. I'm studying Winsor pilates now. Great things about pilates are that it works and allows me to listen on my favorite music. I don't feel any muscle pain with pilates-not like yoga-and I'm feeling so much better.

I just can't stay away from milk tea >_<
When I was in Medinah, I drank this 2 reyal Lipton Milktea, and it was the best tea I've ever tasted. Since then I got addicted to milk tea very much. Well, just one cup a day.

 I can kiss my knee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeay--

 
Oh God please help me through this
This is so painful
Sometimes it's hard to maintain the perfect balance 
I hope I can keep doing pilates for the next months....

they look so cool >_<
I really want to put this somewhere as a poster around my desk...
this year actually I had intended to avoid any kind of fandom freak but I met Triceratops (not literally) 
being Triceratops fan isn't a sin at all...oh fun fun!
I hate Wada Sho!

Anywae--today I tried PILATES for the first time
PAIN IN THE ASS!!!!!!!!!!
I know--I need to beat this-I need to master this PILATES..
Yoga is just  like a refreshing-a relaxing exercise while Pilates is more like the tormenting one
I have difficulty on 'rolling like a ball' pose--pain in my butt--is that OKEY?? 

I'm okey I'm okey!!!!

I love Tricera's new album-I love it I love it and...I think I take it tooo personally. Sho-kun wrote the whole things about the lyrics and the songs on his blog so everytime I hear those songs-I want to cry..ohh--sooo soo swwweet...........

so I better quit!

then I switched my iTunes to another-N.E.R.D....Seeing Sound

I have list about my best albums on this year. This year was great.

Alicia Keys-As I Am--(yea it's 2007's but I just got it)
N.E.R.D-Seeing Sounds
Jason Mraz-We Sing We Dance We Steal Things
Utada Hikaru-Heart Station
Quruli-Philharmonic or Die
Triceratops-Shake Your HIp !!
Triceratops- Made in Love

hhhhhhhhhh-----another crazy night

Yeay-my Made in Love has arrived-and my Loony's Anthem single CD too--
I love Loony's Anthem so much-and Day Tripper is one of my favorite The Beatles's cover from them

I'm making a project-it's a book and The Beatles is going to be book's cover. Still working on it--

Robert Downey Jr.-the actor who can sing. I like him-I think he's amazing. I watched him for the first time, Chaplin, when I was around 7 or 8. Probably I had a crush on him I dunno, since back then I kept that name on my mind-Robert Downey Jr.
And today I watched IRON MAN....well it's not my typical of movie. I dun really like super hero movie because the whole story for me just doesn't make any sense. Transformer is boring, Spiderman is boring, Superman is boring. Well, I kinda like Fantastic Four and I dunno why (coz of the human torch, maybe?)

anywe,
two days ago I watched David Spade's movies. Joe Dirt and Lost&Found. I knew about David Spade from one series "Just Shoot Me!" I remember very much this series because the leading actress there was playing as "Maya". David Spade was my only reason to watch the comedy. He's so funny, and he's cute-I mean he's really cute-jerk and cute.

I've missed Tuesday for CSI NY for couple weeks now since I hate Danny!!!!! Danny Messer has cheated on Lindsay--it's unforgivable! till now I dunno their relationship progress...aAA! why so care about them..
Danny Messer-probably my only crush from the whole CSI series. Carmine Giovinazzo-am I write that name right?

-This week has been Triceratops week-eh?their new album-and they will be on next Lucky Raccoon cover. Sho Wada Sho Wada Sho Wada. Yea yeah....

and I noticed how these man have kinda similarity--especially David Spade and Sho-kun...and Danny Messer with Sho-kun..RDJ with Sho-kun?no not really but Tony Stark with Sho-kun!! Their atmosphere..their sound...their smile..their moves, their jerk stuff, their ...I dunno or is it just me???

This week has been amazing with...--kinda short-jerk-smug-funny-

Tony Stark- good movie -

what am I doing with these all mid-age man...in the mid of night like this
with Youtube playing Dionne Warwick's This Girl's in Love With You song!!!

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD

I got beaten up-I'm just feeling not good rite now becoz....I'm in the red zone---y'know-----and yesterday and today I'm so busy with project stuff--I'm feeling exhausted..............................................................................


and these people finally came and added bright light to my gloomy days ...............




.............they are so cute................


triceratops minna kakkooiiiii....
cute cute cute cute---
mochiron kawaii deshoo

I know I shouldn't post pic from Wada's blog in here--just click the pic and go to Wada's blog...

I looked up at recent posts of my blog--so many things about Triceratops--it's no more Remioromen's fanblog anymore--Triceratops has stolen all the pages--I even forgot saying Happy Birthday to Maeda-san..(>_<)

o well

fufufu

eto...maybe I'm the only one Triceratops fan in Indonesia...only truly Japanese music fan who knows them--wuakakakaka--those who against the mainstream
~

L'arc~en~Ciel...GLAY...Namie Amuro...Ayumi Hamasaki...Crap!!
Triceratops dayoo!

^0^ wakakakakakakakakakakaka